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sex is not the enemy….

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , on 30/06/2013 by doyourememberthattime

a wave of depression has washed over me
if i could hibernate until it passed
i would
failing that, what i crave
is some really hot,
really rough
sex.

i want to be fucked
hard.
sweaty, dirty, sweetly painful

i want to feel something else.

sex acts like a positive form of self harm.
it forces me to stay in the moment
i focus on the sensations
instead
of what’s going on in my mind

when i am in the midst of a sublime sexual experience
i am free
my mind declares a cease fire
i experience peace & joy simultanously
suddenly i’m attractive,
functioning
powerful
i see aspects of myself that are usually out of view

i yearn to be suspended in that untroubled embrace
sex is my favourite medicine.

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penis envy ?

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on 27/01/2012 by doyourememberthattime

this is perhaps a little crude
but
i keep thinking about it
and
i share all my other crazy

i have been obsessing over his penis.

yes
i know
but
it’s true

i am getting to the point
where
i see that i can get over him
i’m not quite there yet
but
i know it is possible

i’m just not sure i can get over his dick
it’s lovely
really, really nice
everything you want from a dick

big.
oh, i know
size isn’t supposed to be important
but
we all know we like a big dick
not insanely big
but you know,
one that causes a little gasp when you first see it

prefectly proportioned
girth correct for length
no overly obtrusive veins
smooth
and
fuck it
just nice
i’m not going to describe his penis.

i miss it
of course i miss him
the man attached is more important
but
i believe i can move on
he might not have been the right man
but
he certainly had the right penis

i may never meet another dick like that
it did all the right things
people always tell you to invest in quality
materials
ingredients
equipment
well, let’s face it
sex was unlikely to go wrong with that in his pants.

i am sad that i probably won’t ever get to see it again
i feel i should be allowed one last goodbye
or perhaps
visitation
can you have penis access ?
dick allimony ?

with all i have to think about this should not be a burning issue
but
it brought joy to my life
it made me feel good
it hardly seems fair that i should be broken hearted
and
deprived of a source of much needed pleasure

i’m really quite upset about this
some other women
is going
to
get
my dick

i wonder if i should run any of this past him ?
(the man, i don’t talk to the penis )